Making Risky Decisions..

As of this writing, I may be too drunk or just being bored in my room.. Not a too typical Saturday for me staying the whole day in my room.. I might be too tired from a long stressed week in the office doing the thing that I haven’t done before in my career life..

This is how my blog entry will flow…

Having an “Oplan: Alis Belem” as my motivation during the first 3 months of my stay here in Brazil makes my worth staying here in Brazil that I know there is somewhere a better place for me to work with.. And that “oplan” makes it a reality, by moving from Belem to Sao Paulo and Nokia to Ericsson after 3 months…

And here the story goes.. a plan with don’t have concrete views on what life will gonna be ahead is like driving in a road at night with no headlights, like a blind that doesn’t see the real colors, and a depth that doesn’t hear the whole story.. Life has been too rapid for me.. making tough decisions that doesn’t consider what the consequences might be ahead..

Karma might they say but it is exactly the same with the principle of Newton’s 3rd Law of Motion, that for every action there is an equal and opposite reaction.. I might not be aware of what life will be taking me through after taking decisions I’ve done.. Maybe this is really me, I am really a RISK TAKER!!!

During 1st week of stay in my new environment, there is something in me that is different, there is a feeling of being “not-thrusting-myself”.. first time in my life that I’ve felt giving up.. there is always a worry what will happen every hour of the morning I wake up.. there is always WHAT IF’S.. what if I will not meet their expectation because I’m a newbie with this kind of career.. what if I cannot perform the function that I should do.. what if I have run out of resources that I need to do to perform such tasks.. what if.. what if… ***sigh…

As time goes by, I just proved to myself that these are only WHAT IF’s… plans without actions is forever be a plan.. and having a visions that soon you will be able to make it by striving harder and making it through, I confidently say, it will be POSSIBLE!!

A month passed maybe too tiring for me, but I am happy to say I was able to surpassed most of the challenges, and little by little I know I will overcome it through…

As they say, success is sweeter if you’ve done it on the hard way.. and making such risky decision makes it more challenging and add colors in my life..

I chose my decision.. I chose my life.. It’s probably encrypted in my palm.. It’s probably my destiny..

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I am just expressing my thoughts.. Life has been too good for me to be true.. These are all the blessings I need to ponder, and make it grower and richer..

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See you Rio next week… atleast I have another week to be waited for…